Sorry? You're 'very sorry'?
Why don't you try using that in a sentence. Like, "I"m sorry I don't know how to manage my alcohol consumption and I have to be babysat like a fucking infant while having become precisely what I hate."
Or, "I'm sorry I'm an emotional cripple who has a history of displacing my unprocessed feelings onto my loved ones."
Or how about this: "I'm sorry I vomited my shame on you in the form of unaired grievances as an exit strategy, rather than addressing them preventatively as two sober, empathetic adults. "
No? Nothing yet? Don't worry. There's more. "I'm sorry I discarded a five year relationship because I feel entitled to something that only exists in my head, put there by media I'm not discriminating enough to sift through."
"I'm sorry my attempts at repairing all the damage have been laughably half-effort, in an ugly mix of protecting myself from rejection, wanting to perpetuate my narrative, coercive phrasing to get you to take responsibility, and the total selfish, unempathetic depersonalization of you by describing it all as 'a terrible mistake' ."
"I'm very sorry that you can't understand what I'm feeling, and are only trying to do your best in the only way you've ever known how."
And yet.
I'm sorry, too.
I'm sorry that some of the pain and struggling with which you are dealing now, are my failing as your partner.
5:05 p.m. - 2022-11-17
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