A conversation I recently had with a young woman with which I hadn't spoken in 4 years.
An excerpt, and paraphrased for clarity.
"... ....So.... because you've had the best sex you've ever had in your life, you're just going to.... stop having sex with people?"
"That's about the size of it, yeah. Why bother settling for less? I don't want to forget that, or lower my criteria."
"What was so great about Katie? What was it about her that-"
"Everything."
"Everything?"
"Yes. Everything."
"But what was the sex like?"
*chuckle* "I do not have the words appropriate enough to accurately convey to you how incredible our sex was. I'm not trying to be condescending, or a braggart. I just can't explain it with proper articulattion."
"Well, try."
*chuckle, deep breath* "Ok. Having sex with Katie was like.... for lack of a better way to put it, was like meeting god. But in real life. That's the sensation I could most accurately compare it to."
"And you never once had a bad sexual time together?"
"Never. (I embellished a little here, for effect)
"That's crazy. It was always that great? What made her so good?
Everything. She was intelligent, and intuitive, and enthusiastic, and attuned. She was submissive but strong, open-minded and creative. She was very attractive, and when we slept together, the rest of the world fell away; we lost ourselves in each other."
"Did she ever let you do anal?"
"We tried, but I wasn't too interested in doing anal with her, to be honest-- I didn't feel I needed it.
"Well that's boring."
".... thank you, Melissa; you're wrong. In fact, your response in so juvenile, you've just retroactively justified every compunction I've ever had about telling someone about this."
*in a forced, mocking tone* "Well I'm sorry I hurt your feelings."
"You didn't, but I can tell I've hurt yours, even though you were the one who wanted to compare themselves to this. Don't act like a child when you feel threatened by something you don't understand, or find intimidating. That's just embarrassing. And your need to diminish something I hold in such high regard just shows your own lack of self-esteem, and inability to understand."
Silence quickly shrouded our dialogue after that.
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Another conversation, this time with a random stranger, not but a few days ago."Nice kanji tattoo"
"Thanks."
"What does it say?"
"Something in Japanese."
*scoffing laugh* Why would you get a tattoo of something if you don't know what it means?"
"......"
And thus, was I proven not once, but twice, why explaining anything worth anything of private esteem to people isn't worth the effort.
No, sir and madam-- your ignorance is not as good as my knowledge.
Fuck you.
1:30 p.m. - 2013-11-14
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